Sex

 I gave up sex a few years ago.  I'd had my heart broken by the death of a boyfriend and wasn't going to date again.  Then someone I hadn't seen in decades came back into my life.  He represented the situation as a poly type opportunity. This however did not even come close to the reality.  I think he lied to get what he wanted and she had no idea how far down the rabbit hole he had led me.  Heart broken for the last time. I don't date. I won't date. But last night I had a sex dream. I have only had 3 other sex dreams that I can remember that I was actually turned on and enjoying the sex. All the others were me wondering if they were done yet because I had things to do the next day.  Sad, right? But this one was one that turned me on. I'm not sure what that means.  I know I've been starved for human touch for over a year now, which could account for it but perhaps subconsciously I'm still craving some type of physical relationship.  I don't know.