The use of words

It's interesting. Sometimes I hear phrases that simply stand out to me. Perhaps it's because you don't usually hear words in that order, or used in that way. I was watching a show and a woman said "maybe it will bring us closer to understanding who God is." Who God is. For some reason to me that seems a bit ridiculous. I think I find it ridiculous because I find that people and the bible tend to anthropomorphize God. Ascribing human characteristics to God seems downright ludicrous to me. I personally believe that god is a sentience that our pitiful human minds can't come close to comprehending. I think people ascribe human attributes to god as a way to try and comprehend god. I don't believe that humans in our present form are capable of comprehending god. I think it's a pretty damn big assumption to even think this is possible. Humans have a seemingly maximum age of 120 years at present. Most will never make that age, but that's about the maximum as far as we know. God is supposed to be an entity that has no beginning and no end. God wasn't born and won't die. God created the heavens and the earth, the contents of our entire universe. There was nothing but god and then because god wished it, the universe came into being. The universe is millions of years old. Billions perhaps. Created all the life in the universe and caused it to evolve. How can a human, who often doesn't understand him or herself possibly hope to understand an entity like that? If you are of a scientific bent, you will also realize that if such an entity does exist that by it's very nature we are actually all part of it. The sun, stars, moon, life, EVERYTHING is part of god. Conservation of Energy/Mass states that the total quantity of matter and energy in the universe is constant. Energy can change to matter, matter can convert to energy (see the atom bomb if you have questions about that part). That means if in the beginning there was only god, then everything in the universe is part of god. God is a force of energy with sentience. So if you can wrap your head around all that then you will understand why I find it ludicrous to hang human attributes like anger, revenge, and smiting to such an entity. I used to watch a tv show called Babylon 5. There was a character on the show that was an alien named Delenn. In one episode she told a human that her species believe that the entire universe was god, that it had split itself up into parts to try and figure itself out. That makes a lot of sense to me.

Happier

We have passed the solstice, days will be getting longer. I will be much happier now that Christmas is over. What disturbs me the most is that I had a sense of missing someone I thought I knew. He pretended, on a master level, to be someone he wasn't. I miss the person I thought he was. I know now that he wasn't that person but it's still there in the pit of my gut that maybe he really thought he was the person he was pretending to be. It turned out that he was a paranoid schizophrenic. I didn't know that and I, being the person that I am, believed him when he'd tell me stories that were allegedly of his life. I hate that that I believed it. Maybe I shouldn't hate the fact that I take people to be truthful and honest. It does though. People take advantage of that about me a lot. No happy medium I guess.