I am quite tired. And very lonely. It's like my soul is aching, crying out for someone to be close to. It is emotionally quite painful. I want it to stop.

I had sunk into a deep depression after my little confession to the friend I'm in love with. I have come out of it now, for the most part. We have been planning that I should come visit him the first week in February. I guess I'll see how that goes. We are still simply friends though. I think I will never find somebody who can fall in love with me. I still am waiting for that knight on the white horse to come and rescue me but I am thinking he's lost his way and will never find me...