This weekend I'm moving into a trailer a couple of friends of mine own. It's on 10 acres, so I should have plenty of privacy. I am hoping to de-stress also. It's going to be such a relief to be out of my mom's house. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, I just can't live with them for very long without wanting to kill them. Not seriously, but I'd rather not take the chance. It's going to be very nice I think. Not the most spacious place in the world, but after the camper it's big enough. Plus it's got running water and such.

I had a really weird dream last night. Years ago I used to run a channel on DalNet called #Lifesucks. I think I mentioned this before. Anyway, this guy Epitaph, real name Bilen, actually came to the states from London and I met him. He stayed at our house a few days. This was back in 1997. I haven't heard from him in years but in this dream last night I was in London for some reason (I've never been to the UK) and was trying to find Bil and couldn't. Just as I was leaving the area where I thought he would be, this guy who I had thought was just a bum gets up and it's Bil, all doped up and an obvious junkie. For some reason this is all very vivid and nagging in my mind tonight. Not sure what it all means.

It's January, 2007 and I have to kill time until June. I was going to go to Tucson in February for the rock show, but I'm going to stay home and save my money I think. I'm going to camp on some friend's land off and on so I don't end up going crazy living in mom's basement. Hmmm. Oh, wait, too late. I'm already certifiable. That's like when I tell Nina "You are driving me crazy" pause "Short drive, isn't it?" Anyway, I had a very good time having Blair down. I miss her a lot now that she's back home. I think Nina does too. She won't admit to anything, but she's been really quiet. Nina is a big problem right now as she argues EVERYTHING. I could say that the sun will rise in the morning and she would argue with me. It's driving me wild. I end up telling her to just shut up more often than not. I hate to do that but my god she doesn't know when to quit. At this point I kind of feel like running off to Tucson, but I can't do that to her. As much as she doesn't like it or won't admit it, she needs me around.

Wow. Had an amazing night tonight. Went to a New Years party for the first time in YEARS. Had a really good time. Thanks to Jeff and Michael for having us out. :) I got to talk, socialize, and even had a guy give me his phone number. He wants me to call him so we can go hang out. I dunno how long it's been since anything like that happened!

Blair has to go home tomorrow and I will miss her. I know Nina will too. But Nina has to go back to school on Tuesday and I would like a more normal sleep schedule. I've been exhausted lately. We went to see "Night at the Museum" the other night and it was HILARIOUS! All three of us loved it. Well worth seeing.