Photo

Colorado Hummingbird  

Sunrise Near The Flatirons

Enjoy.

#photography  #nature

Meh

Well, I was in a relationship with a man and a woman.  I'm not going to get into the particulars but the woman basically dumped me and neglected to tell me.  Then I found out she's been extensively smoking meth.  I had to remove myself from the situation.  Our bf was pretty messed up about all this.  I told him I wasn't leaving him but the situation.  But I got severely depressed and let him know I was and tried to talk to him about it and he shut me out.  Hasn't spoken to me in over a week.  So I am guessing he dumped me too.  One would think I'd get used to this.  But I don't.  For some idiotic reason I always believe someone when they tell me they love me.For being a genius I am sure an idiot.  :(

Depression

This is an excerpt from an article I read earlier:  We all know that every human being has basic physical needs: for food, for water, for shelter, for clean air. It turns out that, in the same way, all humans have certain basic psychological needs. We need to feel we belong. We need to feel valued. We need to feel we’re good at something. We need to feel we have a secure future. And there is growing evidence that our culture isn’t meeting those psychological needs for many – perhaps most – people. I kept learning that, in very different ways, we have become disconnected from things we really need, and this deep disconnection is driving this epidemic of depression and anxiety all around us.

Hit the nail on the head.  

My Brain

I think too much.  I over analyze everything.  I want so much to be loved that I think I assume that people think the same way about me as I do about them.  Feel the same way as I feel about them.  Then when I burst that bubble it sends me into a depression.  I do it to myself.  It's not anything anyone has done to me, it's what I do to myself.  I want to not do this.  How do I not do this?