Self Destruct

 I've been wondering if some humans end up being genetically programmed to self destruct.  I've known people who are suicidal and I knew someone who is gone from it.  I've thought about it.  I've noticed that there's two ways I think about it.  The first is if I'm really depressed and feeling sorry for myself because I've been mentally beating myself up. The second way is if I'm being almost coldly rational, like one might consider whether or not there's enough milk for a small or a large bowl of cereal.  It could be just a genetic lottery and be part of nature's way of avoiding overpopulation. I've never actually harmed myself.  Thought about it but haven't done anything about it. But I bet that people who succeed in killing themselves probably share a genetic marker, or at least a good proportion of them do. Someone ought to look into it.

Booze

 I rarely drink but lately I've been craving a white russian.

Health

 So I have some answers.  I have stenosis in my carotid arteries but not bad enough to produce my symptoms.  The cardiac monitor I wore for two weeks didn't show any cardiac events that were outside normal parameters.  The neurologist I saw earlier this year was an idiot.  But, I have some answers.

Drum roll......

I'm anemic. Like bad enough that my doctor sent in a prescription for iron.  I take an over 50 women's vitamin with iron daily so I'm wondering how bad is it that I need a supplement?  

People may experience:

Whole body: dizziness, fatigue, lightheadedness, or malaise

Heart: fast heart rate or palpitations

Also common: brittle nails, headache, pallor, shortness of breath, or weakness.

All of which I've been experiencing for over a year.  But I had to whine and complain, have a couple of bad falls before anyone would take me seriously.  

Mr Meeseeks

 So a good friend of mine and I love Rick and Morty.  To understand what I'm about to say you must love Rick and Morty also.  I'm making him a Kirkland Meeseeks box for Xmas.  Inside there will be a Kirkland Meeseeks t-shirt and some candy.  I start giggling and want to tell people about it but I don't know anyone else who loves Rick and Morty enough to know what I'm talking about.  Needless to say I'm taking photos as I go.  It's going to be so cool. 😁😁😁😁😁