A Glimmer of Hope

Ok, so I was working on figuring out one of the objective lenses today and I FINALLY found one of them online. Bear in mind I've been working on identifying three of them for days now. The one I identified was the LOMO microscope objective that's 40X spring-loaded EAB planar achromat with a numerical aperture of 0.65, designed for a 160mm tube, with RMS threaded nosepieces and a parfocal distance of 33mm. Now I have no idea what that means exactly. I have a vague idea but vague is all. I know this lens runs for $28.00. I REALLY need a microscope optics expert. I feel like this is the labor of Sisyphus eternally pushing a rock up a hill...

Frustrated

My dad's hobby was microbiology. As such he accumulated a lot of microscopes and gear. Unfortunately I know little to nothing about the value of any of this equipment. I am trying to learn but it's not easy. Brands like Lomo (Russian) and Zeiss are the top names in the optics of this sort, but I honestly don't know how to evaluate them for their worth. I have a large number of objective lenses that I don't know which microscope they fit on, if they are interchangeable between the microscopes, what each type is used for, etc. For example, I have one sitting here that says: LOMO, Russia, EAB-40-1, XEO18. On the other side it says: EAB, A 40, 0.65, 160/0.17. I freely confess I have no idea what any of that means. I can't seem to pull up anything on the numbers and letters on the internet that corresponds with the type of lens I'm looking at. It's disconcerting and frustrating. So if anyone who is an expert in Russian or European optics happens to read this I could really use some help. Please!

The Wonder Of It All by 12of8 on DeviantArt

The Wonder Of It All by 12of8 on DeviantArt



This is such a serene scene.  Wish I was there.

Industrial Decay 6 by 12of8 on DeviantArt

Industrial Decay 6 by 12of8 on DeviantArt



I feel empty like this sometimes.

Emotional Exhaustion

I slept all day today. It's been a real struggle dealing with my emotions since my dad's death. I don't know how to feel some days. Overwhelmed at trying to identify and catalog his equipment, anxiety over trying to figure out how to sell some of this stuff, a feeling of being alone like I've never known since my dad was one of the only people who ever understood me and a bit of envy that he's gotten to leave his failing body. I don't cry in front of my mom. I don't want to upset her any more than she's already upset. Trying to keep a handle on all this is taking it's toll on me. I'm exhausted all the time but I don't sleep well. I've been having really weird dreams too. I just don't know what's going to happen. Am I going to collapse? Can I handle my tasks? I have to. Mom knows less about some of the stuff in his office than I do. I know that it's ok to feel how I do but I can't collapse and wallow in my emotions. I have to keep going. I just don't know how long I can.

Sense of Self

I have been reflecting on what has gone on in my recent past, what I firmly believed when I was younger, and the state of the world. I've come to several conclusions. 1. Greed is an ugly thing. If humanity cannot overcome this it will kill us. 2. If you are against helping the poor, the homeless, the people struggling to hold onto life then you are a damn selfish human. 3. If you are not female and cannot bear a child then you have no right legislating laws about abortion or birth control. PERIOD. 4. The big corporations who are polluting our world must be held responsible for their actions. PERIOD. 5. Humanity has begun a process of killing our home that won't stop until people wake up, get a grip and quit being so greedy and selfish. Because that's the culture we are currently living in, a culture where everyone wants to have more than everyone else and they don't care how they get it. People need to learn to live with what they need instead of everything they want. Humans are selfish. Most of them only care about their own self, possibly their families also but their self comes first. It shouldn't. Be content with what you have not angry about what you don't have.