Ugh

 It's been a hell of a week. I just have had so much going on mentally and emotionally. January 6th was my father's 5-year death anniversary I guess you'd call it. On the 5th I took his dog to the vet only to find out he has Cushing's syndrome. Even though the dog stays with Mom I have a very deep attachment to him. I guess it's like a last living link to my dad. Getting him diagnosed properly and getting him treatment is going to be very expensive. Mom says she will figure it out. It's just got me really messed up right now. So much so that I've even quit following the s*** show that is the Trump administration for the most part. I can't deal with my reality falling apart right now. Because that's what it feels like. I think if we weren't in the middle of a pandemic I would be handling things better, but here we are.  Humans are social animals and even though I'm an introvert I have been craving human contact on a larger scale than the occasional visits with mom. #LifeSucks

Live

 You know what I want?  I want to be financially secure. I want to not have to worry about the government picking and choosing which laws to follow - because make no mistake, laws are for poor people not rich ones. I want a new political party based on the idea that we, as humans, are above the "I got mine so who cares about you" mentality.  But I won't get any of that. So this year I'm expanding my garden and I'll continue to give the neighbors vegetables and hope that one day things will be better. It's hard doing this all alone.  Sometimes I need a hug. A couple hundred thousand dollars would be nice too. Lol.

Toilet

 Yes, now I have two postings with the title of TOILET in a row.  In my mobile home I'm not sure what f-ing genius did this but my toilet is short.  And by short I mean a 3 year old could probably use it without too much of an issue.  I happen to be 5'10" (1.77 m) tall.  I'm large.  I have bad knees.  It sucks.  I need a taller toilet.

#tallerToilet

Toilet

 Lately I feel like this reality is in the toilet and someone is about to flush.  I do have good days but it's like a heaviness on my heart.