Ugh

 It's been a hell of a week. I just have had so much going on mentally and emotionally. January 6th was my father's 5-year death anniversary I guess you'd call it. On the 5th I took his dog to the vet only to find out he has Cushing's syndrome. Even though the dog stays with Mom I have a very deep attachment to him. I guess it's like a last living link to my dad. Getting him diagnosed properly and getting him treatment is going to be very expensive. Mom says she will figure it out. It's just got me really messed up right now. So much so that I've even quit following the s*** show that is the Trump administration for the most part. I can't deal with my reality falling apart right now. Because that's what it feels like. I think if we weren't in the middle of a pandemic I would be handling things better, but here we are.  Humans are social animals and even though I'm an introvert I have been craving human contact on a larger scale than the occasional visits with mom. #LifeSucks