Happier

We have passed the solstice, days will be getting longer. I will be much happier now that Christmas is over. What disturbs me the most is that I had a sense of missing someone I thought I knew. He pretended, on a master level, to be someone he wasn't. I miss the person I thought he was. I know now that he wasn't that person but it's still there in the pit of my gut that maybe he really thought he was the person he was pretending to be. It turned out that he was a paranoid schizophrenic. I didn't know that and I, being the person that I am, believed him when he'd tell me stories that were allegedly of his life. I hate that that I believed it. Maybe I shouldn't hate the fact that I take people to be truthful and honest. It does though. People take advantage of that about me a lot. No happy medium I guess.