Sadness. That's what I've got right now. It's hormonal. It is I know it, no discussion. But that doesn't mean that it's just going to go away. All the horrible things from the past two weeks keep replaying in my mind and I can't seem to make it stop. I usually have some depression around this time of the month, but right now it seems worse than last time. Probably because I HAVE had some much crap in my life lately. Yesterday I had to spend more than half of my monthly income to get my car fixed. I wish I didn't need a car, but in southern Illinois you can't get anywhere or do anything without one. I miss my best friend. Well, former best friend. I'm still upset with my ex-husband. I'm upset with my daughter Nina for running our cell phone bill over $500. I can't pay that. I have to call the financial services mid-month. I feel pretty hopeless right now. I feel old and useless. Doesn't matter I suppose. :P