Have you ever just hit a point where you don't know if you can deal with things anymore? I'm almost right there. I'm extremely close. It's this trailer I'm living in. It's got too many problems. I love living out in this area but I'm almost to the point where I don't know if it's worth it or not. The pipes keep freezing up. I had complained about this and was told that yes there is heat tape on the pipes and if I keep the kitchen faucet running at night it won't freeze up. Well, it froze up. I was without water for 3 days till I finally got pissed off that it wasn't thawing despite near melting point temperatures. Guess what I found. The heat tape was frozen to part of the ground. So, despite the little light in the cord plug in being on, it wasn't working. I replaced it. Once it was replaced it took about 5 minutes and the water was fine. And the breaker box of course. It's got a ton of bare wires in it. I was told "But those are ground wires". It doesn't matter. There shouldn't be ANY bare wires in there like that. There's also the fact that the trailer leans to the south. It's pretty bad on the end where the bedroom is. It's driving me nuts. The roof above said bedroom now leaks. Last time it rained really good (that was before the last snow we had) the light fixture (which happens to be the remains of a ceiling fan) began having water dripping off it onto the bed. The bedroom is so small that there is no way to move the bed so it won't be dripped on next time it rains. The thing that kills me is that any repairs I do, it's not to MY home. On a whim they could decide they want to rent to somebody else and throw me out. So needless to say I'm not EVEN going to start looking at fixing windows. I'm torn between moving my daughter out here with me or moving back in with her and my parents. I wanted her out here this week but I'm really wondering if I ought to. I also don't know if I can take moving again in such a short time. The ground out here is beginning to thaw, and if January was any indication, then the yard will again be a sea of mud. With my arthritis and back problems, trying to carry stuff thru the mud puts me in a lot of pain. To make it worse, one of the guys who is renting me the trailer decided to put these logs all over the yard. So I have to manage to step over these while keeping my balance in the mud while carrying stuff. I wish some millionaire would just buy me 10 acres of land, hand me the title and then go away. Might be the only way I ever get to have my own place again. :(