Yeah, I know, I've been slacking off in blogging. I've been having technical difficulties tho. Not with my computer but with my life. Things are just really complicated and upsetting right now. My daughter Nina doesn't seem to want to spend any time with me, although I'm thinking she does still like me but detests her dad. I spent the weekend installing a water heater for my ex-girlfriend. Yes, I said ex-girlfriend. We are friends. She lost her job and is trying to get thru this semester of school and try to find a new job so things are hectic for her right now. I found her a new water heater for $20 (new to her that is) and I installed it. Took 2 days because the idiot who had redone the plumbing in her trailer was insane. Three different size fittings on the ends of the copper piping. I finally gave up trying to match it and cut the suckers off and sweated new ends on so I could connect them to the PVC going out of the water heater. Problem now is that she didn't pressure test till today and she's got a couple of small leaks (just the PVC tho, my copper sweats were all good) and I have to go over tomorrow to fix that. And I also have to figure out why she now has no water at all in her kitchen. Which, of course, might mean having to tear out all the copper piping in the kitchen and replace it with PVC if it's got a bunch of crud in it like the pipes me and a friend replaced for her this spring. I have a sneaking suspicion that the crud was from her old water heater burning up then sitting there till the guy sold her the trailer. I could be wrong tho. I doubt it, but I could be. And with all this going on I'm selling parts of my old computer on eBay. That's worrisome for me. I worry that I won't get bids on stuff and then still owe the fees. I hate that. I'll have to get over it tho cause I need to begin to pay my dad back. I've given him some money but not enough yet. Not even CLOSE to enough. So I've got all that on my mind. And of course I hadn't mentioned Blair yet. Blair is my daughter that I gave up for adoption when she was born. Her dad died while I was pregnant with her and I kind of fell apart when that happened. It was an open adoption tho, which means that she grew up knowing me and my family, knowing that I was her birth mom. It hasn't been easy sometimes, cause there's always that part of me that felt I should have kept her. I don't know that her life would have been better or worse. Probably worse in some ways better in others. She feels that she's odd and we just accept her as one of the family. I think she feels more comfortable around us sometimes. But I digress. She's 17 and a senior in high school now. And a few weeks ago she e-mailed me to let me know she's pregnant. Yup. She thought I was going to hate her. I made sure she knew that I didn't hate her and that no matter what I would always love her cause she's my daughter. I told her that I would not go to Arizona yet if she didn't want me to and she said she would like me around till the baby is born. Now she lives about an hour and a half north of here but I will stay in the area till then. She had an ultrasound on Friday and found out it's a girl and she's due April 13th. I have to say I'm excited, upset, sad, frustrated... And maybe half a dozen other things. Excited cause it's a baby!!! Upset because I can't be a physical source of emotional support, no daily hugs, can't hold her hand when she's crying for no reason, etc. Sad cause I wish she was older and didn't have to give up the baby and also that it's going to interrupt her senior year but at least she will go on to university. Oh, and I forgot really FREAKED OUT that I'm 38 and gonna be a GRANDMA!!! Oh, and Blair, if you read this, just remember that if necessary I will kick that boy's scrawny little butt if need be. Just so you know.