Urg. Not seeming to get sleepy tonight despite my meds, although I am spending the night at my parent's house and I forgot to bring my Benadryl. I remembered everything else but forgot that. :P When I can't sleep I end up with a thousand things running thru my brain. Good things, bad things, confusing things.... I have some friends who want me to live in their farmhouse this winter and help them rig up solar and wind power for it. I am torn. I would like to do it but with my physical limitations I am hesitant. I don't want to let the guys down but it would be a good thing for me, let me put back some money and get the camper fixed up a bit better than it is. Plus, I'm worried about Nina. I am not sure she would be ok without me, even for a just 3 months. Not that mom and dad wouldn't take care of her, but let's be honest, nobody replaces mom. The thought of not being here for her in case she needs me bothers me. It might be different if her dad cared about her enough to visit with her, or even pay child support regularly. Her dad quitting his job is why we lost our house. And right now it's like I have to babysit him to make sure he actually keeps working so he will fork over child support. It's insane. Sometimes I wonder if it would just be easier on me to bang my head against a concrete wall. Might be less painful in the long run.