Arg

 I'm really trying to resist going down the rabbit hole of holiday depression.  I found out today that the ultrasound I had on my legs Wednesday shows I've got blockage which means my doc is referring me to the cardiovascular docs.  So that's hanging over my head plus more people are dying from Covid here and I'm worried I won't get to see my daughter at Christmas.  She's 26 and still thinks I was a horrible mom despite the fact that I'm the one who always comes through for her. I dearly love her despite that.  I am so proud of her for having the courage to chase her dreams.  Makes me wish I could have overcome my anxiety and reached some of mine.  Anyway, I'm just going to try to keep my head above water and hope I'll be fine. 👍