Monday, October 26, 2020

Tedium

 I guess everyone needs to invent a purpose for their life.  I don't have a purpose.  That makes it hard to get out of bed sometimes.  My brain just goes "screw this" and I go back to sleep.  I know it's not a very healthy way to deal with things but I'm at a loss.  It seems like nothing I can do will matter either to the big picture or in the long run.  I envy people who have faith in a god that personally watches over them and protects them.  I think that gives them hope and purpose. Unfortunately I don't believe god is like that. At all. But what I do believe is a bit complicated. I do know that the god portrayed in the old testament of the Bible is not a god I could put my faith in.

No comments: