Mental Illness

Yes, mental illness. A heavy subject. I suffer from depression as well as PTSD and OCD. My brother suffers from depression, PTSD, OCD and I'm pretty sure narcissistic personality disorder. He might also be borderline personality disorder or possibly schizophrenic. I'm not sure. I do know that when he gets depressed that nobody loves him, nobody cares, nobody knows what it's like, blah blah blah. This might seem a bit harsh but when he gets on the pitty potty it's all about him. Nobody and nothing else matters. Not his wife, not his sister, not his parents, nobody. He becomes emotionally and verbally abusive to people around him. Back in the day, I used to get these phone calls in the middle of the night, He'd be drunk or overdosed on some of his meds and need me to come get him wherever he was and take him to the hospital. Or sometimes the hospital would call and tell me they had him in the ER unresponsive. That went on for a good ten years. Then he straightened his shit up, finished college, got his masters degree, married a wonderful woman (his 5th) and we all thought he finally had his shit together. And then he took a desk job in Boston. Boy did that screw him up. He's not one of those people who can do a desk job. We knew it was a mistake but he didn't ask us. Basically shit flew apart in Boston and he and his wife ended up in Colorado. I don't know if he's been drinking again or not but he's started his shit again with the "oh poor me" business. It usually escalates around the holidays. Basically he's putting his wife through hell. It pisses me off. He's ignored mom and dad, he's ignored me, like we've all done something to him. Doesn't seem to have any sense of family obligation. And now he's tearing his wife apart. I'd punch him right in the face. Or kiss him upside the cranium with a baseball bat. (Yes, that was a vague Primus lyrics reference.) It's not fair and not right. He gets his own head so far up his own ass that his brain doesn't get enough air to function. Ok, rant over.