Discouraged

I'm feeling down, depressed, discouraged and somewhat annoyed. This usually happens every fall when it starts to get cold out and we lose the daylight slowly. I am thinking about getting a full spectrum bulb for my room. I don't know that it will help but if it's SAD (seasonal affect disorder) then theoretically it should help. I'm really regretting the rain this last week. We haven't had much but the forecast was such that I didn't go camping as I'd planned. We need the rain but I really wanted to camp. And it really hasn't rained much at all. GRRR. I'm under a lot of emotional stress right now anyway. I have another test for breast cancer in November. I've had ultrasounds every 6 months for the last two years because they are watching "a spot". I wish they would either stop the ultrasounds and stick with the mammograms or do a freaking biopsy already. Seriously the not knowing is stressful. And on top of that I'm staying with my parents to help my mom out with my dad because he's got Parkinson's disease. He's in a wheelchair a lot. He uses the walker a bit too but has to have help with the bathroom and all. Mom helps him there. This is a stress to me because until earlier this year I've mostly lived alone. Living with other people is a big adjustment for me and it's not easy. I'm dealing with it but I feel really wrung out emotionally all the time. I really needed a camping trip. I might bo in November if it's not too cold. We'll see.