Urg. I have never considered myself a "normal" person. This might account for my relationships with men. I tend to end up attracted to the most dysfunctional men. I've always wondered why this is. My ex-husband is a prime example of this. I tried to make that relationship work for 11 years. Why I held on so long I'll never know. I have always strived for some sort of security in my life. And one of my goals in life was to have my own home. A place where I could paint the walls black if I wished. I had that for 7 years before I lost it. My ex decided he didn't like his job anymore. He had been working at the factory in town. Making very good money. So, after telling him that if he quit without having another job and thus the child support payments stop we would loose everything, he quit. Without the child support, I had to support my daughter and myself on my disability. And of course, we lost the insurance that covered my daughter. So that's how I ended up living in a camper. I knew this would happen and attempted to make sure I would have a roof over my head. Nina, my daughter, has insisted on staying with my mother. Which is a good thing now that school has started. This is all beside the point tho. What I've learned is that no man that I would date is worth dating. So I'm done with dating men. I had my cousin ask me once what about all the good men out there who want to take care of a family. I asked him "Where the hell are these men cause I sure as hell don't know any of them!". Sad, eh? It's ok tho. If I need companionship I have a dog and a cat.